Stronger

If I could use one word to describe how infertility has changed me, I would have to say I am stronger then I ever was before. Over the past 15 months I have smiled through baby announcements, baby showers and the baby Aisle.  I have fought back tears as people are clueless about the heartache of secondary infertility. I have forced a smile on my face and say soon when he tells me he wants a baby brother. I have stood up for myself and worked with my RE to develop a treatment plan that works for me. I have endured painful test, blood work and the disappointment on my husbands face. All while saying/crying to internally  why  can I not have another one?

 I do not know why God has gave this trial, but I do know that God is in control of it all. There is a baby out there for us for Ian to call his Brother or Sister.