Went to the dr for an ultrasound today. My folicals looked great (much better than last month) which means tonight Aaron will give me a shot to make my eggs release. I had 2 ready on my right side. He could not find my left side but wasnt concerned since the right was ready. On Wednesday morning we will go in for the insemination. I am very excited and hopeful this time around. Praying I keep my hopes under control but have a feeling that wont be happening. If this works, based on my iui being Wednesday, my due date would be October 24th. My Dad passed away October 24th 2009. At first I wanted to skip this month, knowing what my due date was, and that with a c-section it would be born the week of pumpkin show. Now I am hopeful this is what happens. I know my Dad is keeping an eye on us and I can not think of a better way to remember his life then to give birth to new life around the same time. So Like I said, its going to be a very emotional month of praying and hoping that this cycle works.
1 year ago in Feb I first heard the words infertile. It has changed my life forever. I have become stronger, determined, and have learned to cherish each day with all my heart. We have been trying to have a baby for 22 months. That is 22 months of getting our hopes up and then being broken to pieces. We are trying to keep our minds busy and on other things, but in our heart, all we want is another baby to rock and love. People tell me, At least you have Ian. I am so greatful for my son and I do not know what I would do without my precious baby boy. However, I am so heartbroken when he tells me he wants a baby brother or sister. Praying that this is the month God grants us our wish and desire.
