Pregnancy everywhere!

Ever notice when you want something with your whole heart you notice everyone else who has it? In the last 24 hours I have received 3 pregnancy announcements, 2 notices on how dialated they are, and pregnant people everywhere.

Am I happy for these people? Of course. Am I thinkiing why not me? Yep. I don't wish infertility on anyone and am truely happy for other pregnant women. However at the same time, it is hard not to ache when seeing a newborn or a pregnant woman. Wondering when will it be my turn. Will I ever rock a baby to sleep again? Lay in bed feeling it have the hiccups? Only time will tell

IUI Update

Went to the dr for an ultrasound today. My folicals looked great (much better than last month) which means tonight Aaron will give me a shot to make my eggs release. I had 2 ready on my right side. He could not find my left side but wasnt concerned since the right was ready. On Wednesday morning we will go in for the insemination. I am very excited and hopeful this time around. Praying I keep my hopes under control but have a feeling that wont be happening. If this works, based on my iui being Wednesday, my due date would be October 24th. My Dad passed away October 24th 2009. At first I wanted to skip this month, knowing what my due date was, and that with a c-section it would be born the week of pumpkin show. Now I am hopeful this is what happens. I know my Dad is keeping an eye on us and I can not think of a better way to remember his life then to give birth to new life around the same time. So Like I said, its going to be a very emotional month of praying and hoping that this cycle works.

1 year ago in Feb I first heard the words infertile. It has changed my life forever. I have become stronger, determined, and have learned to cherish each day with all my heart. We have been trying to have a baby for 22 months. That is 22 months of getting our hopes up and then being broken to pieces. We are trying to keep our minds busy and on other things, but in our heart, all we want is another baby to rock and love. People tell me, At least you have Ian. I am so greatful for my son and I do not know what I would do without my precious baby boy. However, I am so heartbroken when he tells me he wants a baby brother or sister. Praying that this is the month God grants us our wish and desire.

Here goes round 2

Round 2 is underway! I took 5 days of clomid begining last Saturday. Tomorrow morning I will be going to my specialist for an ultrasound. This will determin how many eggs we have and if they are ready or not. The ultrasound will let us know when Aaron is to give me the shot and then I will go back to the dr 36 hours after the shot to have the iui.

If this round doesn't work, we are asking the dr to see if there is any test we haven't done. I don't want to use up our insurance covered iuis and then find out what is wrong.

We have many things going through our mind and trying to figure out which is best for our lives. Thank you for your continues prayers and support.

Well round one of Iui did not work. Feeling very disheartened by this. so thankful that Aarons insurance covers the treatment so we can move to the next round right away. Will be starting my 5th round of clomid this weekend with iui the end of jan/beg of feb. We have 2 rounds of iui left before we are to meet with my dr to discuss what options we have. Aarons insurance will pay for 6 cycles but most pregnancy results happen in the first 3 months. Thank you for all the positive thoughts and prayers. We feel them daily.

Iui scan

Well yesterday aaron and I headed to ohio reproductive medicine and met with dr williams. I had an ultrasound and had about 9-10 folicals growing. Folicals are what eggs produce from. I have 3 follicals that should be big enough to produce a mature egg.
After the ultrasound my dr talked to us about the success rates. Right now naturally my chance of conciecing is 1%. With clomid it raised to 4%, with clomid and iui we are at a 10%. Praying we are in that 10%!

After that we went to the nurses for aaron to learn how to give me a shot and get everything scheduled. Saturday night aaron will give me a shot which will nake ne ovulate in 36 hours. Monday morning we will go to the office and have the insemenation done. A week later I will go for blood work that will say how good my ovulation was. Then 9 days later we can do a home test.

Please keep us in your prayers as we undergo these very emotional treatment. We feel the prayers daily.

Our journey continues

This past Sunday it became official. we will be trying artificial insemination in hopes and prayers that we will have our second child on the way. The one Christmas present I really wanted this year was a positive pregnancy test however it was not meant to be.

Please continue to keep us in your prayers as we continue this journey. It has been a long hard 18 months that has left me drained on so many levels. Aaron has been such an amazing supportive spouse through it all and a great shoulder to lean and cry on.  So here is to praying and hoping the next 3 months will lead to a positive pregnancy test.

I am currently taking a medication and then I am going to the dr
for an ultrasound next Wednesday. I will then learn if insemination will be 12/30 , 12/31 or 1/1

Here we go

Well Friday morning started with me having to tell my husband that he was wrong. No baby on the way. Our second try at clomid was a fail. After curling in bed just to be held, I regained my stregth and determination to keep trying and know that this baby will come in God's timing. However, also accepting in my heart that this baby may be along way off. I have spent the week sorting, packing and preparing to donate baby items. Keeping those that I love, and donating the rest. It was a hard process and very emotional at times however at the same time, I know we will make great memories in the reclaimed space!

So today we begin our 3rd and final round of just clomid. Not looking forward to the side effects but atleast I am only working 2 days this week so that will help with the sleepless nights! We are praying this cycle works, but also preparing mentally for our first round of Artificial insemination to begin the week before Christmas.